In seven weeks I will have a child.
The number one thing I don't want to do to myself is completely alter my own definition from sassy Black lesbian to plain ole "mom". I'd rather be a sassy Black lesbian with sassy Black/Mexican offspring in-training. For twenty-seven years, I've been a version of me that has been slowly transitioning into something else throughout this pregnancy and I know that as soon as the kid gets here, that version of me is going to transform into something completely different.
I am not taking this idea very lightly. In fact, I might even be building it up in my mind. Sometimes I think to myself that I could have been childless forever. Not have to take responsibility for another life. Not have to worry about anyone but myself.
But then I ask myself, who would take care of me when I'm old and senile? Who will inherit all of my debt when I'm dead and gone? And who am I to take away all of these, the greatest of life's pleasures, from my future child?
Enjoy, kid!
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